I have met too many people that keep walking on the wrong path because they believe they have gone too far for God’s forgiveness. Such a big, obese lie.
Let me tell you about the God that I’ve experienced, in my blunt, pure, unadulterated way. He loved me long before I knew anything about tithes and offerings and He loved me when I used my tithes to buy burger and Zaron powder.
He loved me when I was riding that man like okada, and when I left the man’s house and went straight into another man’s apartment for sex, He loved me even then.
He loved me when I was pole dancing, He heard each prayer I whispered. He loved me when I was naked in the sight of a hundred men, tweaking for my daily bread.
He loved me when I lay on that bed to abort another baby. He loved me when the doctor extracted the foetus and put it on the platter.
He loved me when I had purple and gold dyed hair, when I wore a net blouse and really short shorts to parade the street.
He loved me when I was shivering in the rain right after almost getting used for rituals, I had followed a man old enough to be my grandfather.
He loved me when my father broke my heart time and time again.
He loved me when I questioned my mother’s intentions and actions.
He loved me when I asked Him questions, when I challenged Him, when I didn’t believe in His existence.
He loves me when I’m having sexual urges and I make another mistake.
He loves me the day I’m not interested in going to church.
He loves me when I’m being a good girl and He loves me when I’m being a bad girl.
What did they tell you about God? Oh how sad! They gave you all the rules and regulations of a taskmaster. What? They didn’t tell you He’s also Father, Friend and endless lover?
You think He craves your religion? You think He doesn’t understand that you are struggling with some of the commandments He gave you? You think that all your mistakes and sins have reduced His love? How sad!
I became free the day I understood that it’s always been about relationship, not religion, never religion. I became free the day I knew that He loves me anyway and anyhow and His love requires that you come as you are, with your baggage.